insomnia kills.

i should be asleep. but for some reason tonight my mind wants to hate my body and not give it permission to sleep. im totally in love with my band of the week...kashmir...dont go look for their CD they havent been released in the U.S. quite yet. but to sum them up, theyre basically a less depressing radiohead. not close to how amazing radiohead...but the singer has a similar voice and the musical style is similar as well. i suggest you download something from them. i sat and did a bunch of financial planning tonight which felt really good...now i know what i need to get done in the next couple of months so i can get my ass out of SA on onto some big oppurtunities. i may have a job working for urban decay or hard candy when i move to arlington/dallas. which is fucking AMAZING. i just got a job with Ralph Lauren fragrances. i really hope that works out. 14 bucks an hour to look cute and sell perfume to women? hell IM down. so i convince steven that im the best girlfriend in the world tonight...lol dont ask. i just got the title. i love that boy. hes the first non-douchebag ive dated. BIG STEP. so back to my financial stuff...i need about 3 or 4 grand before i move up there. so get ready to see workin my ass off lacie...*dramatic musical interlude*. aha. i need to start writing in here more often. just so i can keep this journal always and when im older...i can read it and remember. so i got accepted to be a suicide girl earlier this week...which im still debating wether im going to do it...we'll see. im kidnapping whit when she gets out of school and were gonna go up to arlington so i can get my hair done for free and FINALLY get it how i want it. and then steven is coming back with whit and i for my mom's wedding reception. i cant believe my mom is having another kid...and getting married. its just so random. you have to see her fiancee to understand my awe. just go to google...images...robert washington. and yeah thats really him. i live with that guy. SO BE NICE. my sister hasnt called me in about a week...its starting to piss me off. shes so flaky sometimes it drives me nuts. tomorrow im gonna turn in some more applications to other places (because yes i need 2 jobs) and probably go shopping for some work clothes (because i have to be ultra conservative...which does not exist in my wardrobe). then some workin out...because i need it. swim a few laps and throw in some crunches. im starting to eat healthier as well...and ive cut down the smoking. sometimes i hate writing these kind of entries because deep down i know people dont really give a flying FUCK about this random shit...and its not my deep and random poetry...so i apologize if this is a waste of your time. it just gives me something to do every night at 5 am when i cant go to fucking sleep. i dont think anyone remembers that i have a livejournal anyways. oh well. meaningless shit. im gonna try to sleep now. i need it. night.

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the girl on the left